In light of my FMUS1's recent plight, it's my duty to do whatever within my capability to cheer her up and this entry is specially dedicated to her. Due to popular demand, I've decided the first chapter of my "Mondays with Psycho" to be on the topic, sex. As controversial and taboo a topic it may be, it is still an issue that plagues our everyday lives so there's no point shunning it.
We, humans, are created with 2 genders - male or female. The defining difference is definitely the anatomy. To facilitate the understanding of this topic for amateurish readers, the part of the anatomy I am referring to is the genitals - penis and vagina. Have you ever wondered why our genitals are shaped in such a way that one actually complements the other??? The truth is really simple. Sex is a natural oder of life and there's really no use denying it.
Whichever faith or religion you may have, God created us in such a way so that a couple can enjoy the pleasure of lovemaking and bliss of having a family. In his eyes, sex between a loving couple is sacred and untainted. If he wanted it any other way, humans could end up like an ameoba; reproducing by splitting itself without sex.
However, over the centuries, the line has been blurred. Some people dun even know for sure which gender they belong to. Others engaged in casual sex with various partners like there's no tomorrow. In addition, prostitution and pornography are tarnishing the image even further. As such, the natural order has been violated and most people start to see sex as something sleazy and degrading.
At least for me, I still believe consensual sex between a loving couple is part and parcel of a strong relationship. It is scientifically proven that the intimacy actually strengthens the bond between the couple. Hence, I feel that if you are doing it the rightful way with the correct partner, there is really no shame involved.
Having said so, there are many who want a taste of the forbidden fruit but do not have the guts to own up. To me, this sort of behaviour is shameful. If you have the guts to do it, why not the guts to admit it. You could groan and moan as loud as you want during sex but when asked if you ever had sex before, you could give a blatant lie by saying no. This is like a slap on ur partner's face! So are you implying that having sex with that partner is filthy by denying!!! I am not saying you have to spill the beans on the details when questioned but at least have the decency not to lie. Dun fricking portray urself as an innocent and pure person when the truth is, you are far from it. Walking away or simply ignoring to answer that question is the slightest respect you can give to both yourself and your partner.
If you are really afraid of coming under the scrutiny of others, uphold your chastity and keep your virginity till you are ready to embrace sex with the right frame of mind. As far as I am concerned, a liar is far worse than a nympho.
Take me for an example. I am never shy to admit having sex with my ex-gfs coz there was love involved. It just so happened that the relationships did not work out due to some reasons. The message I am trying to bring across in this entry is that sex is something misused, misinterpretted and misrepresented.
Disclaimer: I am no advocate of sex and I am not trying to encourage sexual intercourse between loving couples. Love is something very subjective and different pple perceive it differently. If you think both you and your partner are ready, do it on your own discretion. My only advice is better be safe than sorry. Always have precautionary measures in place if you wanna engage in sex. This is also a form of respect to your partner.
"Mondays with Psycho" Chapter 1 - Sex
Mondays With Psycho...
Inspired by "Tuesdays With Morrie", my FMUS1 came up with the title of this entry. For those who haven't read the book "Tuesdays With Morrie", I recommend that you read it sooner rather than later. It's definitely better than any of the "Twilight" series by Stephanie Meyers!
Well... Here's a lil trivia bout the book. It's bout this journalist who rediscovered the meaning of life after spending several tuesdays with his college professor during the last few months of his professor's life.
Make no mistake, I'm not even attempting to draw comparisons with Morrie, the professor. He would win hands down. I would like to see myself as a totally separate entity with something different to offer. If my FMUS1 could come up with such a tagline, I have no grounds to believe otherwise or so I think.
I may not be as inspirational or learned like Morrie but I do give valuable advices. If anyone of you beg to differ, kindly leave behind a constuctive comment k. Anyway, I think there is basis to my earlier statement since my some of my close frenz like to confide in me. This is probably due to my character. Being a melancholic, I tend to be more analytical in terms of how I perceive things.
Having said so, not many can see this side of me. Most pple just can't see past the first barrier, appearance. What kinda advice could a gay, ah beng or a flirt give! I know this is what most of you are thinking that when I'm toking about me. Then again, this is what many perceived me as. Am I really gay, ah beng or a flirt? The answer is.....................................NO!!!!!! That's why only my close frenz confide in me coz they know me well enough.
Taking the term psycho as an example. What would you associate it with? Psychosis, insane, maniac, serial killer etc.... I know, I know.... This would be the common response. In case some of you haven't known, my nickname is "Psycho". To my close frenz, I'm called "Psycho" coz I'm eccentric, flamboyant, liberal and daring. This is the difference in perception I'm talking about.
I'm calling all to look beyond and get the bigger picture. "Mondays with Psycho" is promising to be light-hearted, fun and enriching. Feel free to pick up ur phone to dial my number anytime, anywhere and anyhow. A selected few has priority so if you couldn't get through, dun be disheartened and keep calling. LOL!!!!!!!
One More Week...
Exactly 7 days from now, I will be officially 25. Well... Some of you may think that I m getting old, real old~ Seriously, I dun really give a damn bout my age. To me, it's a chronological figure. Like how Sherilyn put it just now, "I am still young, but you peeps are younger". Hence, it really is a matter of perspective.
What matters more to me than the numerics is how much I have grown, emotionally and mentally. Truth be told, I have been haunted by 2 old ghosts of mine in the past 1 week. They have reminded me of the mistakes I had commited in the past. To a lesser extent, I am still committing one of them now. As for the other one, it remains to be seen... Hai~
Just how many more years do I need before I can eradicate this part of me that I dread so much??? Until I am able to do that, I will never be completely happy. This I am certain, simply because I know I deserve way better.
Thinking back, some people really treated me like dirt. I used to question myself why they did so but I have passed that phase now. When you don't treat yourself with respect, how do you expect others to hold you in high esteem... No one will ever think highly of a soccer team if it keeps losing. The same rule applies to all walks of life.
If I really deserve better, then I must show myself worthy of it. One week isn't really what you would call a long time but I feel it may well be a turning point. A turning point to show pple what I truly am and capable of doing. Hopefully, all the wisdom and experiences I have garnered at the age of 24 could be the catalyst...
Si Tong...
So what exactly happened on that day???
I met Wendy for movie on fri(2/1/2009). We watched Yes Man and I must say it's a rather nice movie. Being a comedy, it's actually quite a meaningful one. After which, we went Little India and chilled at an Australian Pub. Having had a long day, I told Wendy that I needed to go home earlier and rest. I did just that and hell! it's a decision that I will never regret for the rest of my life.
Shortly after bathing, my elder bro told me that my sis-in-law's waterbag had burst and he's gonna send her to the hospital. Without hesitation, I told him I wanted to tag along and witness the birth of my niece. Well... Truth be told, I didn't really get to witness it but I managed to be the 3rd person to have spoken to my niece. I was also mistaken to be the husband coz I accompanied my sis-in-law into the delivery suite and later chased out after my identity was exposed. Lol!!! The 4 hours of waiting was well worth given the euphoria I experienced when I saw my niece for the first time.
Honestly, I didn't have to go the length of going to the hospital and wait. I could have visited my sis-in-law and my niece the next day. However, my excitement got the better of me. I simply couldn't contain it. The surge to see her asap was so great that words are impotent to describe. I wanted to tell her that I am gonna quit smoking for her. Although I have yet to really achieve that, I think I am not far away. I am only smoking like 1 stick a day for crying out loud!!!
As much as I dun look like it, there's no denying that I love kids. Seeing how cute my niece is, how can I possibly not adore her?!?!?! She is like an angel that has just stepped into my life, rejuvenating every cell and essence running through my body. Every single day, I just feel like going home as early as possible so I can see more of her. The very sight of her calms my soul. I hope everyone in the family can see you through my eyes and put their differences aside. This is the very least they can do coz you really really deserve it, Si Tong...
2009, Are You Gonna Be Different???
As of now, I'm 3 hours into a new year, 2009. For the past couple of years, I had been setting myself resolutions that I wasn't able to keep. Somehow, my instincts tell me that 2009 is gonna be different. Maybe the beginning of a new life, a breathe of freshness.
Personally, I feel I have grown in leaps and bounds towards the back end of 2008. It might not be palpable to outsiders but I know for certain that my maturity has gone up a notch in a few aspects. There are many areas now that I am looking in a more positive light, which is beneficial to my emotional well-being.
To pinpoint the reason behind this improvement is hard. I, myself, dun really know for sure. However, there are a couple of factors that I can probably attribute this remarkable change on - the breakup with Mei and "Tuesdays with Morrie".
I have learnt to appreciate my family and friends more. I wish to be their pillar of strength when they wanna be strong; I wish to be their guiding light when they are lost; I wish to be their bundle of fun when they are bored; I wish to be their solace when they are down. This is no mean feat considering the diversity of family and friends I have. I will still try nonetheless.
In order to help others, I need myself to be strong and determined. So far, my mental toughness has been my achilles heel. Without it, I cannot fulfill my aspirations. Stepping into 2009, I have encountered my first test. Under the most unlikely of circumstances, I have developed some feelings for this particular girl. Due to some reasons, I have to keep my feelings in check. I have too many other stuff to contend with so any additional emotional baggage or commitment is a big no no. It's one of those scenarios that you have to take a step back to move two steps forward.
Well... On the surface, she seems like a nice girl. It's a pity that I can't follow my heart coz there are too many more important factors I have to consider. Having said so, would I be able to withstand the temptation??? This only time will tell...
A Picture Paints a Thousand Words...
Gift Exchange With Tummy Gang...
My Bitch & I...
Hey Fara, dun steal my chicken wing...
Fricking hungry from all the walking at zoukout...
Joy, Fara, Evonne, What's her name, Bitch & Me
Oops! I'm semi-naked...
At vivo before the party begins...
Terence, Me, Qin Yuan, Teh
Us again... (Qin Yuan's Bday so he gotta be in both pics)
Ktv wit Mei Qin...
Kelvin, Me & Alvin at Dragonfly... (Ah Xia Kia's Bday)
09 Post Gift Exchange Pic...
A more solemn post exchange pic...
Brief Update...
Looking back, it has been 3 weeks since my last post. I must say the past 3 weeks have been rather eventful. It would probably take me hours to elaborate every details, so let me just present the more meaningful occasions in a nutshell.
1. On the very last day of MST, class 09 had our usual Xmas gift exchange. The only difference this time round is the gift I received. Personally, I would call it a "Jar of Love". From the bottom of my heart, I was touched upon receiving it from Shermeen. It isn't something extravagant but definitely something that takes a lot of thoughts and effort. The candies and chocolates in the jar are like drops of love kept by a friend. Not to mention the lil surprise hidden right in the midst of it...... Thanks again Shermeen for the wonderful gift.
2. Just last wed, we had a long mahjong session at my place. It wasn't so much on the money I won or what could have happened the night before. It was the guys who were present - terence, lulu, alvin, mendi and edward. When was the last time this bunch of us sat down and played mahjong together?!?!?!?! All of us have embarked on another chapter of our lives and we no longer have the luxury to have this sort of gathering. Maybe to most, they would see it as just a normal gambling session. To me, it's far beyond that. It's reminiscent of our "good" old days. It's the fun and laughter that we always have during this kinda occasions that make me cherish them till the day I die. On this old mahjong table of mine, many friendships were forged, many friendships were strengthened, many friendships were rekindled.
3. Lastly, it must be Zoukout with my bi-atch and her gang. Lol!!!! Honestly speaking, I am kinda disappointed with the whole Zoukout experience. Probably due to the fact that I was kinda tired from work and tuition; probably due to the fact that my bi-atch and her gang aren't really party people. Nonetheless, I still enjoyed my bi-atch's company for the night. To a certain extent, I feel we are like Will & Grace. Just that I'm not so gay and you're not so graceful. Hahahah!!!! Whatever it is, dun be so emo k. Look at ur bi-atch! I am no longer that emo like how I used to. I've improved and so should you. Anything can always talk to me k.
As much as I wanna upload some photos, I am too tired to do it. Will try to get some pics up in the next few days before someone starts to complain that my blog is too wordy again k. Before I hit the sack, I wanna wish all my frenz a Merry Xmas and Happy New Year. Very soon, it will be the dawn of a new year and may all your wishes come true. Goodnite and adios...