Liberation At Long Last...

With regards to Reena's comment on the previous entry, I am indeed merely mortal. Nothing more than a human, which is why I am susceptible to the perils of mankind like betrayal, cruelty, selfishness and the list goes on....

Having said so, I have no desire to discard my humanity as I feel more complete as a person. Here is a quote from a Morrie, "Learn to love or perish." It sounds rather harsh but it does make a hell lot of sense. However, if you interpret it the wrong way, the consequences could be dire. To love doesn't mean channelling all ur affection towards one single person, it's more like loving your community, your family and your friends. And this is exactly what I am gonna do.

Let me now congratulate Mei for her unerring capacity to prove my instincts right every single time. Bravo!!! You being attached to a 24 year-old malay guy so soon after our breakup further reiterated all that I had said about you. Frankly speaking, I am not really angry with you. Why should I?!?! We have already broken up so you have all the luxury and liberty to be with whoever you desire. The thing is, I am mad with myself for loving you so much in the past and neglecting others that are more worthy. You really dun deserve even one single tiny bit of it.

Apart from the congratulations, I also need to thank you for being the catalyst of my change. Gone are the days when I devoted myself to one single girl. Avan doesn't belong to just one person. I belong to my family and friends. Instead of presenting my entire heart to one individual, isn't it better to scatter it and spread the love around. It's less risky and more pple stand to benefit. I am not trying to be a saint here. All I want is to grace as many lives as possible, especially those close to me.

Mei is dead and with her death, I've found my new perspective of life. The mark of a man is not how much money he has earned; how much girls he has laid or even how many children he has. It's about how many hearts he has touched coz love is something that cannot be forgotten. When my time is up, I hope I don't have to look back in anger or regret. I wanna see the smiles I have put on pple's faces...