Stairways to my Sanctuary...

Believe it or not, HH has started his own blog!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my dear lil bro, isn't he just full of surprises...

In a way or another, blogging has become an integral part of our lives. You can diminish its impact on our lives or even beg to differ, but there's no hiding that many pple out there wanna be heard. Things you aren't comfortable articulating, you put it in ur blog and hope someone will chance upon it and give their 2 cents worth.

Why? Why? Why has mankind deteriorate till such an extent?!?!?!? What exactly is the problem - environment, education, friends or family? Well... I suppose no matter how hard you scrutinize it, you can't really get to the root of the problem. Whatever it is, this issue is certainly chronic.

Communication and understanding are breaking down ard me and it's really disconcerting. I simply can't understand why most pple cannot sit down and discuss a problem in a calm and rational way. Instead allowing problems to manifest and blown out of proportions. Sharon and her mom; Kaiwen and her parents; Phoebs and my sis; Dave and Wendy... The list can just go on and on...

If possible, I really wanna act as their bridge of communication. With better communication comes better understanding. Not that I am not trying, it's just not enough for a mere mortal to barge in and be able to make a significant difference. Nonetheless, I will not throw in the towel. Somehow, I feel more joy in helping others than I ever used to. Not only do I wanna be a bridge, I also wanna be a guiding lamp. A lamp to guide the lost in the dark wilderness by sharing my own experiences.

By doing so, I am able to climb the stairways to my sanctuary. A place I can be at ease with myself; a place I can enjoy tranquility and serenity; a place where my hatred can be appeased, my anger can be assuaged, my pain can be soothed, my fears can be allayed, my anxiety can be calmed.

This may come across as too good to be true for some of you. Think of me as whatever you want. You have the right to be sceptical and there's no way I am gonna begrudge you of that. I have been a devil for far too long and I wanna be an angel for a change. I know that as long as I am feeling joy, I won't stop. So for those who have faith in me, do confide in me as and when you like. I may not be ard all the time but I will try my best to be as available as possible.

Honestly speaking, I feel very comforted to learn bout HH's new blog. I believe he has come to a crossroad in his life which instigated him to start blogging. In all honesty, I have no idea how much i would be able to help him. At the very least, I get to know what's going on in his heart and mind.

Having said so, it saddens me a great deal when I know nuts bout my own twin bro. Of all the pple I wish to help, he must be right up there on top of the list. I know he's suffering and that's in no small part due to a particular "Miao". Just imagine a masculine man washing his gf's undies with his hands in the middle of the night when she's sleeping soundly in the comfort of their small single bed. She could have washed it herself when she came back from work. Nope, she didn't. She played PS2 all night long while waiting for her man to bring food home for her and put her to bed. The man's pride and ego were thrown out the window for the name of love.

While watching this, I couldn't help but reminisced. I had been through this, I thought to myself. What more do us, brothers, need to do to earn the love we deserve???? Or are the girls just undeserving for us???? It beats me to no end. Whatever it is, my ordeal is over and I can only wish the same for my twin bro. May ur faith lead you to see things like how I see it now...