A Teardrop of Sorrow...

I cannot recall the last time I had tears rolling down from my eyes. It must have been a while...

Unfortunately, the overwhelming sadness that I felt several hours back, triggered some mechanism in my body and managed to squeezed out whatever that is left from my tear duct. Not that I had cried a river, it was just this one drop that rolled down my cheek which spoke volumes.

If you think I cried bcoz of her, that goes to show how much you know me as a fren or as a person. Ever since Huishan, I have never allowed myself to cry more than twice for a girl. Come to think of it, only 2 girls have achieved that feat and I would be glad it stays that way.

So what exactly happened that made me shed a tear??? Well... The 2 persons I value most in my life are my mom and elder sis. I think many of you will be surprise at such a revelation coz I dun normally talk about them or express such feelings openly. The bottomline is, I simply hate to see them being hurt. I guess it's pretty obvious now that one of them was the cause of me tearing.

Before I left for Reena's house, my elder sis and younger sis got into a very heated argument. It was so sudden that caught me totally by surprise. I mean, both of them are kinda close and arguing over a trivial matter is absolutely absurd and uncalled for. The war of words took both of them to the verge of tears and having not witnessed how it started, I was in no position to remedy the situation. Considering my elder sis's condition and my younger sis's temperament, I stood watching haplessly fearing for the worst repercussions.

It was as though both of them were throwing knifes and daggers at each other and I was caught right in between, feeling the blades cut through my flesh. Tears took the place of blood and started welling up in my eyes. Somehow, I managed to fight it back and dragged my nephew out of the house to prevent further damage.

Eventually, there was a crack in the floodgates and a fateful drop of tear rolled down my cheek when I was in the cab. I was really disappointed that my younger sis could say sorry umpteen times to her ex-gf but not even once to my elder sis. I read an article ages back discussing how humans never or seldom say thank you or sorry to family members. Back then, I already knew the article was spot on since I am guilty myself. What happened between my sisters further reiterated the point. We are all too self absorbed in our own pursuits till the extent of taking our family members for granted. Although I haven't improved a whole lot, I am certainly trying to appreciate my family members more.

I know my family will never go back to the way it was during my younger days but in the last couple of years, the situation has improved rather significantly. I want it to continue improving and an argument like this is definitely a step back. I am praying hard that there will not be any manifestations...