PARDON ME BUT I JUST GOTTA TYPE THIS ENTRY IN BOLD AND CAPS COZ I'M FUMING, REALLY FUMING. THIS NEW BLOG OF MINE ISN'T SUPPOSED TO CONTAIN ANY UNHAPPY ENTRY BUT I'M SO MAD RIGHT NOW THAT I JUST GOTTA RANT IT OUT.
AS IF MEI HASN'T CAUSED ME ENOUGH TORMENT, SHE JUST GOTTA DROPPED ANOTHER BOMBSHELL. HONESTLY SPEAKING, WHAT IS THE FRICKING PROBLEM WITH HER??? I'M BAFFLED, ABSOLUTELY BAFFLED BY HER IMMATURITY. HOW IS IT POSSBILE THAT SOMEONE IN HER THIRTIES CAN CONTRIVE TO BEHAVE IN SUCH A WAY??? SIMPLY PREPOSTEROUS...
LAST NIGHT, SHE MSG ME TO RETURN EVERYTHING THAT SHE HAD BOUGHT FOR ME. THE THOUGHT OF RELINQUISHING THE ITEMS IS ALREADY HARD TO SWALLOW. HER REASONING IS EVEN MORE ABSURB. WHY CAN'T SHE TAKE A BREAK-UP LIKE AN ADULT INSTEAD OF RESORTING TO ALL THESE NAIVE ACTS!!!
TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, AS MUCH AS I LIKE MOST OF THE ITEMS, I HAVE NO QUALMS IN RETURNING THEM TO HER. I JUST WANT THIS DEBACLE TO END ASAP. I'M PISSED WITH MYSELF TO HAVING STARTED THIS WHOLE THING. WAS I BLIND BACK THEN TO SEE ANY GOOD IN HER??? OH GOODNESS ME, IF THERE WAS A TIME MACHINE, I WOULD TAKE IT IN A HEARTBEAT AND UNDO ALL THESE CRAP. THE BOTTOMLINE IS THIS HAS TO GO DOWN AS ONE OF MY BIGGEST MISTAKE SO FAR IN LIFE.
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I REALLY DUN WANNA TO STOOP TO HER LEVEL BUT I AM LESS THAN CONTENDED TO LET HER HAVE HER WAY. BLOODY HELL!!! I THINK I HAVE TO THROW MY MORALS OUT OF THE WINDOW WHEN DEALING WITH PEOPLE LIKE THAT. HERE, I'M TRYING NOT TO LOSE MY HEAD AND SHE JUST GOTTA INSIST ON PUSHING ME SO CLOSE TO THE EDGE. FINE... SHE WANNA WAGE A WAR, SHE WILL HAVE ONE. LET'S SEE WHO WILL BE AT THE LOSING END...
ONE OF MY BIGGEST MISTAKE SO FAR!!!
Neoprint!!!
Yes, yes... I know I'm 24 already but that doesn't mean I can't take neoprints. I'm young at heart ok, in case you haven't known. Anyway, this is like my first in dunno how many donkey years. It was taken at cineleisure with some of my 09 classmates. Really enjoyed myself that day with the likes of my lil bro, Hai Hong, around. We took quite a few shots but I'm only uploading 2 of my favourites. Enjoy...
Am I relishing singlehood???
With regards to the title of this post, I'm still kinda sitting on the fence. What I do know is I'm so looking forward to this weekend!!! Well... I guess it's not hard to imagine after 2 exam papers and several tuitions. Phew~ One more paper to go and it'll be the long awaited holidays.
So what have I done for this weekend so far??? Erm... Let me think. The 1 thing of note was meeting my FMUS1 on friday night at AMK Garden Mac. To tell ya the truth, I thoroughly enjoyed the chilling out session. It has been a long while since I last spent quality time with my FMUS1. We talked about almost anything from soccer, relationship, work, studies to even marriage and having kids. How often do you share such connection and understanding with someone else??? Very very comfortable is how I feel with my FMUS1. Isn't this fascinating!!! To think we were in the same sec school but never did notice each other's existence until a few years back. From time to time, I just can't help but wonder how compatible a couple we can be. HAHAHA!!! That's probably daydreaming on my part given the other factors. Anyway, I'm just glad I have my FMUS1 and it's a friendship I truly cherish. I can only hope for a future gf with the same sort of chemistry.
Hang on a moment... I shouldn't even be thinking about having a gf or anything along the line at this moment. Although I'm not sure if I'm relishing singlehood right now, relationship is more of a liability currently. Come on... Enjoy the perks of singlehood a lil. It's true I'm forgoing companionship and other stuff but in return, I have freedom. No more worrying, no more answering to anyone. I can pretty much do whatever I like. Deep down inside, I know this is what I am craving for so I should embrace singlehood. To hell with companionship and the other crap! I have my friends and honestly speaking, I'm not quite the emotional dependent sort. At most I'll just stay at home and stone like Mendi if I feel lonely or whatsoever. LOL!!! If ever I need a reminder, I don't have to look any further. Mendi is a living example leading such a carefree single's life with no relationship related stress or torment.
In all honesty, I don't think this is a pressing issue. Just let nature take its course. Attached or being single, I believe fate has it all mapped out. At this very minute, I'm more concerned with Ah Du's snoring. I'm getting tired but I wonder how would I be able to sleep with the decibels increasing. Any how, I am still gonna try coz my eyes are getting smaller with every passing second. Goodnight and may God bless me...
Dawn of a new chapter (or so I hope....)
Phew~ Took me quite a while to customised the layout of this blog. Well... Just glad that it's finally done. Maybe many of you will think that this is a new blog of mine but believe me, this isn't. It is more like a continuation from my previous one which is still running. As a new chapter in my life unfolds, I thought it would be fitting to have another blog to mark the start.
So why do I say it's a new chapter in my life??? In all honesty, my life is still pretty much the same. You know... In sixes and sevens as usual. From all the normality, there is one significant change though. I HAVE FINALLY CALLED TIME ON MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MEI FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! Given my personality, it was certainly no mean feat I tell ya. Not that I hadn't tried before, it was more of giving in at the crucial moments because I am too sentimental and soft-hearted. Anyway, it is all over now and God! am I relieved...
As far as I am concerned, the breaking up is like overcoming an obstacle. A lot of courage and determination had to be mustered in the process due to my shortcomings. Nonetheless, I had done it and I believe it is a stepping stone to many greater things. The problem now is whether I can move on from here and not rest on my laurels.
Without a shadow of a doubt, it is going to be tough, real tough like it has always been. Thinking back, I can't help but wonder how I managed to stay alive till now. I don't know about you but I feel a part of me had been dead for quite a few years. You, my dear friends, keep the rest of me going. On countless occasions, you gave me strength to fight on. Without you people, God knows how long it will take me to break with Mei! Your company gives me the peace of mind that I won't be alone and from there, I drew the courage. I am sure I can conquer my other weaknesses as long as I have you guys - GMH clique, Tummy Gang and Poly mates.