If Only I Could Split Myself Into Two...

A X'mas gathering without turkey and logcake is never complete. Even so, Fmus1's own-made quiche more than made up for the absence of a logcake. The gathering at Ang Heng's place a couple of days ago was indeed a pleasant with most of the Gee Meng Hock members being present and a decent assortment of delicacies.

I honestly thought I would missed out on the gathering this year due to work. I didn't even prepare a present for the gift exchange for crying out loud. Well... Amanda isn't my Fmus1 for no reason. She's like 1 in a million kinda fren. So sweet of her to bring an additional present on my behalf for the gift exchange. If not, I probably wouldn't have gone coz gift exchange has kinda become a tradition for the clique. Thanks Fmus1!!! Oh ya, whoever chose my present for me got me a computer mouse! A most welcomed gift considering the state my current mouse is in. All in all, I enjoyed the company of my peeps, the food and pretty much everything to do with the gathering. The only sad note is I didn't get the chance to have a proper chat with Timbre:( Fret not Fmus1, the chat is merely postponed. The chat is inevitable as far as I'm concerned since it involves your future happiness.

Having said what I have mentioned bout the gathering, there's no denying the fact that there's actually another place I would wanna be at that moment. Too bad there's only one Avan but this only Avan seriously did wanna go to the far far west. If only I could be at 2 places at the same time, my joy would have been doubled. Let's keep our fingers crossed that I wouldn't be facing this sort of conundrum in the coming years...

My Yuletide Is Not So Gay:-(

Working on X'mas Eve really sucked big time!!! Watching others enjoying the gaiety of the occasion and partying away only dampened my mood. As if that's not enough, I just couldn't stop thinking bout her. For a few hours, my mind kept wondering whether she's home already; whether she's resting well after a long day; whether she had some last min impromptu meeting with her fren or frenz, while my body continued with my bartending duties. It's almost as if my mind was disconnected from my body. It's mind-boggling how I even managed that but I just did.

I have been telling myself that I am able to retract as and when things start going awry but I can no longer deceive myself. I concede I'm well and truly smittened by her... On my part, it's still too early to tell if it's a good or bad thing since I am no mind-reader. What I do know is my defence mechanism is in the process of going into overdrive!!! The only thing that entails is a complete shutdown...

Following the shutdown, the system will reboot itself. Reboot itself to which state, that I have no idea. In truth, I'm not dying to find out coz my hunch tells me that it's gonna be ugly...

上海娃娃....

I should be in lalaland by now after having bathed and stuff but if I didn't post this entry, perhaps I wouldn't be able to sleep so well in a while. It's just something that I have to get out of my system...

As some of you should already know by now, I'm currently working as a bartender at Shanghai Dolly. Up till last night, I hadn't brought any frenz to check out the place or having frenz visiting me at work on their own accord. For the 1st time, I, myself, brought a fren to Dolly. I thought she might like the concept and certainly hope she wasn't disappointed by the experience. At the very least, I tried my best by treating her to a Flaming Mendi's Fav Car and Bacardi 151. I know my splurging on girls days were behind me but I still relish buying a drink or two for someone I cherish or fancy.

Given she isn't a very good drinker that she claims to be, she got kinda tipsy after 3 drinks - Flaming Lambo, Vodka Cran (courtesy of Jin Zhong) and Bacardi 151. Maybe Santa was giving me an advance X'mas gift, I was able to invade her personal space due to the alcohol surging through her bloodstream. Before you even start to think the obscene, let me stop you right here and now!!! No doubt she was kinda vulnerable like a lost sheep, it never cross my mind to devour her like a blood-thirsty rabid wolf. I won't deny I had done some unglorious stuff in the past, deep down inside, I am seriously not a desperado scouring the dancefloor for drunkard chicks. I would say the only advantage I took of her was sniffing her hair, something I always do as a show of my affection to someone that I genuinely fancy. It certainly brought back a tinge of deja vu. Ya know, like all of a sudden, I was back in an all familiar place. A place of wanting to fall in love again. It's kinda paradoxical coz it brought fear along with warmth. In terms of my clique's lingo, this kinda paradox is known as "Kangtao". Lol!!!

How I wish I could just turn back the hands of time and go back to the days when I enjoyed courtships and relationships without having to think of the obstacles and pitfalls. I want to be optimistic but can I?!?! The harsh realities of life forbid me from doing. Once you let your guard down, you are fully exposed and susceptible to whatever kinda shit that's out there. If only I could have her as my 娃娃, things would be so very much easier. Nope! We dun live in a world of happily ever after. We live in a world of Oops! Sorry Avan, I think you have shit thrown right smack in ur fricking face!!! SONG BO! PANG BO! Hahahaha!!! Sad but true....

I shall retreat to my lalaland for now where I could enjoy my few hours of 娃娃time....

2010 in a Nutshell...

It's that time of the year again, month of festivities and celebrations. As Christmas and New Year draw closer, they also herald the end of 2010...

Ask yourself my friends, "What have I accomplished or experienced in 2010?". I am certain everyone of you has gone through a wide spectrum events. Perhaps some of you with more trials and tribulations, while others are filled with more joyous occasions. Whatever it is, I think we should all look forward to 2011 coz personally, I have a feeling that it's gonna a year full of surprises and excitement.

On a more personal note, 2010 has been eventful for me to say the least. In terms of academic, 2010 officially marked the end of my highest qualification as an O'Levels holder and ascended me to an undergraduate with a Diploma in Business Administration. In case some of you haven't known, I'm doing Bachelor of Accountancy & Finance in SIM under University of London. So far, school has been fun due to the fact that I am blessed with the company of the 3 Avan's Angels - Puiling, Jolene and Audrey. Lol!!! I know in no uncertain terms that many guys in sch r envious of me. Sorry dudes, they are my Angels so come near them and I'd slash ur balls off with parang. Haha!!!

As for my job, I no longer work at the sleazy Ipanema. I am too cultured for a place like dat. Eh! Bo la, bo la, just kidding nia... I just wanted a change of environment. You peeps can see me concocting Flaming Lambos now at Shanghai Dolly. With a new workplace and sch, it's inevitable when it comes to meeting new pple. So far, I've acquainted myself with a few new frenz from work. Conversely, I haven't made any new frenz in sch, or hav I?!?! This Audrey la. She's also from SP but we took different majors. I already knew her name and stuff back then coz I thought she's the most attractive out of the 08 gals and my opinion hasn't changed. It was kinda like a coverted admiration hence, I didn't go all gung-ho and approach and chat her up. Not my style and never will be given what a shy guy I am. She had the "dao" face too which further deterred me from making any moves. Haha!!! As such, we never did talk back in our SP days. Yup, that's why I ain't sure if she falls under the new fren category. Actually it doesn't matter since I've always wanted to know her and I do now:-) I reckon that's more important.

2010 is also a year which I revisited both Taiwan and Zoukout. I am not going to deny there were some conflicts during the Taiwan trip considering the sheer size of the travelling group but all in all, I am certain that all of us had loads of fun barring claud. I so wanna go back to Taiwan soon!!!!!!!!! The same can't be said for Zoukout after all the major kangtaos leading up to it. All the "got tix, no tix" drained much of my enthusiasm. Worse still, compounding to my misery, I have no idea how I could lose my ticket before entering and made to pay a bloody 200 bucks to some fricking "ang moh" who was gloating bout how much profit he made from selling tix to desperate pple who couldn't get the tix through the proper channel. I was all prepared to go home coz I didn't wanna be held to ransom but my steadip frenz couldn't bear to see me go home and paid most of the 200 bucks. On hindsight, I was glad that I bought the 200 tix. If not, I wouldn't have been able to enjoy the company of my fellow zoukouters.

In sum, 2010 has been unkind to me with regards to monetary losses. 2 fines totally 500 bucks and then the zoukout fiasco. Hai~ It's ok. Who knows??? Perhaps 2011 is gonna be a "dua dua tan tan" year for me!