Self-Actualization

How long has it been?!?!

Been a jolly long while.... I have been wanting to post something ya know, go back to my blogging days. But somehow, I kinda lost the zest for it:( There are many factors really and none more so than being too caught up with work, slogging my life away to repay my debts and feed myself, basically to survive in this one hell of a rat race society.

The unfortunate passing of Miao's father and also the tiff I had with my gf got me thinking... Is this seriously the life I am after?!?!?! A resounding NO!!! for crying out loud!!! Then again, what have I been doing to suggest otherwise????

Every god damn day, I'm just going through the paces - going to work, heading home or gf's place, working out or spend a lil time with her. Far too many pple are leading this sorta life without having a single clue what and why they are doing it for.

To many, working is to earn money and inevitably, the more the better which in my opinion, is somewhat pathetic. It's a no brainer that we can't do no shit without money, but is the amt of money you earn the one and only denomination of success in your life! I would raise my hand up and say NO! To me, it's more of self actualization - finding your sense of purpose and achievement in your job, ultimately becoming whom you wanna be.

As for spending time with your love ones, the underlying reason for doing so is none other than LOVE. Unfortunately, not everyone, in fact most pple dun share the same sentiments as me. It's sad when you have a gf who is rather self-centred, doesn't reciprocate the effort you r putting in and is more concern with the balance of her bank account. How could someone like dat ever be a good mother, let alone being a good wife?!?!

Too many of those close to me are too fixated on temporal gratification and it saddens me to no end:( Right now, there are but two options laid bare in front of me - continue to wallow in the state of sorrow due to the current state of affairs or come to the realization that it's beyond me to help them find meaning in life. After giving much consideration, I have to admit that I really am too jaded with leading pple onto the supposedly right path (supposed my coz my view ain't everyone's view) so I shall just do the needful and in terms of others and spend more time and effort in seeking the life I truly want...